While I may or may not have any regular readers yet, because of my personal goal to blog regularly, I want to state that I will not be able to meet my posting goals for some time.
The bad news:
On February 16th, I sustained a concussion at this time am struggling with light sensitivity and concentration issues at this time.
That’s why I haven’t been able to make updates on my projects, and haven’t been sharing much of what I’ve found and learned for a few weeks.
I have a lot of ideas and projects I want to work on as well as resources I’ve found and wanted to do write ups on. But trying to catch up on school, and personal projects as the breadwinner of my family has meant that I’m stretched thin right now.
The good news:
My first priorities are to graduate this semester or next semester while getting back into my job full time. In order to do that, there will be doctor visits, and other appointments, as well as plenty breaks sitting in dark rooms.
What is really great, is that I have an excellent husband, work place and peers who have helped me step back a bit, and given great advice. It’s shown me that uprooting my life to study IT, and going out of my way to be involved in the cybersecurity community (as much as I can) was the best thing I could have done.
It’s funny how right now, some mental tasks are “easy” and others are sometimes impossible! For example, counting more than a few things, staying on task, or doing arithmetic… not so good. Yet, I can generally express myself sufficiently. There is a big difference between expressing experiences, and writing well about complex issues. But I have a feeling as I get better, I’ll want to share what I’ve found for accessibility software and the like. Maybe someday I can contribute to improving or expanding some of the vision and focus tools!
On a similar note, despite my successes, my years at UVU have been an extremely difficult period in my life. The sordid details aren’t important, but suffice to say I’ve become well acquainted with my own burnout-doppelgänger. Having a serious but recoverable injury has shown me how much I’ve learned from the bad in the last four years. I finally understand what is meant by the saying that hardship builds character. And it’s reignited my passion for my studies at a time when I was once again, setting unrealistic standards for myself. If I had given up sooner, I wouldn’t be so lucky now.
I hope if you’re burning out, or facing a monumental struggle right now, that you also hold on to hope and take care of yourself. It may or may not get better, but I promise, if you don’t give up, you will get stronger.